Andrew Joseph Heyns

So I did dad I'm going to highschool. I'm excited but I'm also scared cause I want to make you and mom proud but I'm afraid I won't be able to do that. I constantly feel like a disappointment to this family its almost like I feel I'm not good enough. Mom said she would give 4 years here in Arizona to finish highschool then she wanted to move to a different state and it made me upset because I want to go to college here at UofA I got upset because if she leaves I'm on my own ya I will have grandma and everyone else but that isn't there same as having mom. Life kinda sucks right now and I am missing you like crazy. I'm not sleeping at night because I have to much on my mind and most of the time I cry my self to sleep. I just want both my parents right now but I will never be given that because you left me and now mom is talking about leaving me too. I hope I make you proud I do try my best but sometimes that isn't enough. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU like no words can describe. 

Hey daddy I'll be 14 soon and after that comes high school the older I get and the more things I start to achieve in life I want both my mom and dad there but unfortunately I can only have mom. It's not always the best feeling in the world when a daughter needs her dad and can't have that. I will be prompted at the end of the year to enter high school and the only people I really want there is both my parents. I have gone through so much pain and I'm slowing pulling my self completely out of it but it's hard than it sounds I've been trying to do this the last few years because I can't take all the pain any more it got to a point where I started to let it take over my life. I try to be the daughter you wanted to have but that's hard because I have to protect myself, help mom, do well in school and so much more. Sometimes a girl just needs her dad and when she can't have that it makes life harder than expected.  

Hey dad I wanted to talk to you I have few memories of my own that I can think of. I know there are many memories with you but becuase I was young I had to be told about all thinghs you did when you were her. I wish you weren't taken away from me. There are times when a daughter needs her dad but I have everyone accept the one and only person I truly wanted which was you. It's hard going though life with a bright smile on my face when at times I want to cry and not smile. I dont really like when people ask if I'm okay when I cry or look upset at those times I want to be left to myself but not many people understand that which can make me mad. I just wish I had more between the two of us but we will sometime. I love and miss more than words can expalin to anyone.

 

THE BROKEN CHAIN

We little knew that morning, that God

Was going to call your name

In life we loved you dearly,

In death we do the same.

It broke our hearts to lose you.

You did not go alone;

For part of us went with you,

The day God called you home.

You left us peaceful memories,

Your love is still our guide;

And though we cannot see you,

You are always at our side.

Our family chain is broken,

And nothing seems the same;

But as God calls us one by one,

The chain will link again.

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I was browsing through a friends site this evening and I came across one of my favorite sayings... You used to sing it to me all the time... So I am going to sing it back to you..

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.

When you're not happy, my skies are gray.

You'll never know dear, how much I love you.

So please don't take my sunshine away

You will always be my sunshine andrew.. I love you now and forever.

Hey you,

 

I was talking with jess the other day and she told me that her and terry found the ticket stubs to the very first movie we went to together. Remember it was simone that really stupid movie, and there was nobody in the theater except us and another couple. Those were the good days. We just wanted to add that memory. Love You.

andrew you are an amazing person. when i used to hang out with michelle you would always make us laugh.you have such a big heart and you have touched  everyone you have ever known we miss you greatly.

Well I have sooo many great memories of all of us together. I was always at your house exspecially after Michelle and I would get out of school. One of the best memories that I have is when Michelle and I went and bought you your video camera so that way you could video tape Hannah's Delievery. She was so excited to get it and give it to you. Then the night she went into labor all of us sitting in the hospital waiting and you playing with your new video camera making jokes about wanting to video tape the whole thing. You always made us laugh and every memory bring a smile to our face. To this day Terry, Michelle and all the old group talk about all the great memories. WE MISS YOU AND LOVE!!

 

Well I have so many memories I could share. But the most treasured memory of mine is when our little girl enter the world on dec. 22, 2002. From that day on andrew loved hannah and when he came back home from being on the road they were unseperable... I am thankful to have known such an awesome young man. He taught me so many things in life. I will forever cherish him.. I love you andrew.